My story is that of a single girl falling for a married man. Things were going great, I had thought he really meant his promise, but then a married man broke my heart. I wasn’t going to let him off the hook so easily for it.
How I Took My Revenge On A Married Man
I called him Mr. Big like Carrie Bradshaw did. Just that my Mr. Big was married. Was I wrong to love a married man? I don’t know. But I can tell you this: it’s not easy to forget a married man you love even when a part of you knows all along how it might end. He was so married that he knew of all the disappointments that marriage entailed and was determined to drill that into me. His determination overtook his love for romance and his love for me. In hindsight, I wonder if it is love that makes you selfless and marriage selfish. I wasn’t like this, always. I may be sounding cryptic now, so let me start at the beginning.
The beginning of my love story
“But Kali, you are not dark at all. You are like Snow White! Why on earth did your parents name you this?” he asked me, his wide eyes boring into mine. I blushed. It had been two years since we were dating. And yes, sleeping together as well. We had just finished a session of lovemaking and I was exhausted. Happy and exhausted. I wanted this every night, every day. Not just when he could escape the clutches of his wife. “I don’t know the reasons. Just as I don’t know the reasons as to why we cannot be together for real,” I replied after a moment. “We will be. Soon. I promise. Just let the business take off,” he had replied.
He never had plans of leaving his wife
His father-in-law had invested in his business. I knew it for sure since his father-in-law was a distant relative of ours. In fact, that is how we had met. At a relative’s wedding that we were both attending. His wife couldn’t make it to the wedding and that turned out to be a window of opportunity for us to come close. I could sense that a married man was flirting with me, and I enjoyed the attention. It was perhaps love at first sight for me. Then, we kept in touch. Since we were both working in Mumbai, we began meeting up. Then love blossomed. “What about your wife?”“What about her? I’ll divorce her, of course.”“Promise?”“Pukka promise.”“What will everyone say?”“We will manage something” He used every ruse in the playbook of married men looking for action on the sly, and I fell for it. Then, my married man went back to his wife.
I never thought I will get dumped by a married man
That was only the second time we had had that conversation but as the weeks passed by and the ‘soon’ never appeared to come closer. Our conversations on the topic became more frequent, as did his reasons for delaying the divorce. Words changed, of course, but the content remained the same. I started having doubts about his plans of leaving his wife. He convinced me though that he would. I melted. I never thought of taking revenge on a married man then. But like all of them, this married man went back to his wife too, leaving me feeling hurt, broken and used.
He got me a diamond ring
One day, it was probably the third year of our relationship that he got me a diamond ring. I was elated. He came and said he would be filing for a divorce soon. How I hate the word “soon” now. I had started window shopping for clothes and was wondering what to wear when my ‘big day’ arrived. My parents coming from a relatively small town were keen on me getting married. The moment he left, I called my mother to tell her all about it. My grand affair with a married man and how it would culminate into a marriage. I had thought she would be delighted. “What are you doing, Kali? You are an absolute disgust to our family. A home breaker? My daughter? Marriage is pure. You are impure. What did you do for the last four years, Kali? Don’t ever call me again!”
It was all downhill from there
That was it. That’s how it ended with my mother. She had probably told our family for soon after that everyone stopped calling me. Even my aunt’s cousin, who used to stay in Mumbai, stopped taking my calls. And then one day, Mr.Big stopped taking my calls. Our story had spread and how? I never knew at that time that I had been dumped by a married man and the rest of my life will now be spent plotting revenge on an ex.
I was rejected by my married lover
I went over to his office in desperation breaking our code of never meeting or acknowledging our connection in public, only to be treated with disrespect. “What is wrong with you?” I had asked him. “What is wrong with you? Why did you tell your mother?” “You wanted to marry me!” “Please lower your voice. Please take this money and leave. I am a happily married man.” Suddenly he became a devoted husband. For me, though, he was just a married man who used me, and then dumped me. By offering me money, he sure showed that he knew how to add insult to injury. That was the first time I wondered how to hurt a married man and make him experience the pain I was reeling in.
I never knew I will be dumped like this
How people change. How people lie. How people kill with words. How people destroy with actions. How I got destroyed! I was a rock when I first came to Mumbai, but all that was left of me was a pile of debris after a married man broke my heart. It’s been 3 years now. And I have changed. I didn’t have the strength in me to face Mr.Big but one day I will. I still see him in every man and I am afraid to fall in love. I can’t fall in love. In fact, a demon was born in me. I have become the She-Devil. A demon devoid of love, who gets pleasure in destroying marriages for I believe marriages and love, everything is fake.
I took my revenge on a married man
I met Sushil soon after. Sushil had joined my office and was married as well. I felt a little attracted to him and he showed more than just flippant interest in me. Then I found out that he too was married. The marriage didn’t stop him from getting attracted to me. And that’s when it struck me. He was Mr. Big as well, not the Mr Big I was in love with but you know… Had it been my Mr.Big, what would I have done? I would have wanted to tell his wife. I would want the world to know that I am not the evil one here. So I played along with Sushil, but this time I had a plan. I went out on dates with him. We even went to Goa for a weekend. I took plenty of pictures. And we kept the fact that he was married, absolutely out of our conversations. Meanwhile, I had befriended Sushil’s wife on social media. And on Valentine’s Day, I put up a hundred pictures of Sushil and me! Conveniently, I called in sick for a week and had switched off my phone. When I returned to the office, Sushil’s desk had been cleared out. His wife had blocked me on social media. I knew I had served my revenge – not just to one man but to the concept of marriage. Fidelity is a farce. I had taken my revenge on a married man.
I was on a revenge-taking spree on married men
There was Prashanta, Nehal, Aniket and Zoravar after Sushil. All married. All whose wives have me on their block list. I am viewed as a vamp by people around me. I am a victim of circumstances but they don’t see that. They don’t see that I became this person when a married man used me and then discarded me like yesterday’s leftovers. They are scared of me. I don’t have any friends, but I don’t care. I have learned to become my best friend. I am at peace. One day when I am stronger I will get in touch with Mr Big and make his life a living hell. He has a daughter now. She is three years old. One day, I will make her hate her Daddy. That’s my promise. That is when my revenge on a married man will be complete. (As told to Joie Bose)
